Yes, today is my birthday and I am now 28 which seems much closer to 30 than 27 did. Not that it matters much to me, I'm just surprised at how quickly time passes. It is a day of reminscing(for any of you who are anal about spelling, please take me off of your blogs to read link). I've been married 5 years, a mom for 1 year, a woman, a child. I love being Jon's wife. I love being Mac's mother-even through the PPD. I love being Renae and all that encompasses from the years past and those yet to come. I once read a story about a little girl who was having a birthday. She was getting tired and frustrated and people kept saying "now you're a big girl" and "act your age", but she had this wonderful understanding that said when you were turning 10 you were still 9 and 8 and 7 and 6 and5 and 4 and 3 and 2 and 1 and 0. I always loved that story. So today, although I am turning 28 I am still 27, 26, 25, 15, 10, 6, 3..........
My mind is junping jumping..so if you want to jump along keep reading.
There was a time in life when tea was the social highlight of my day. Many of you may remember those lingering lunch and dinner hours in the BBC cafeteria. Good times..... Now tea is much more solitary and, most times, less thought-proking, but still a welcome part of my day. What is it about a warm mug in my hand that causes me to slow down and come into the present? I love these moments of remembering. I think of old times....dating Jon, jumping on the bed, night talks, movies, walks, going to the ocean, eating clam strips by the sea, swimming in the little falls, a bonfire in the woods, car trips, choir trips, a crazy host home in PA.....life has been good and yet none of it will make its way onto any front page. Not that I mind. It's just facinating to think that the beauty of my life, of your life, will be so little known to the world at large. We have a meal group that meets on Mondays at our home and it is the highlight of my week. I love cooking and fret over the lack of tasteful home decor, but in the end, the relationships are what matter and will be remembered. I love that. It takes the pressure off of me. These people fill my life, just as many of you have....and still do fill my heart. God has been oh so good.
On another note, I'm reading The Irresistable Revolution by Shane Clariborne. It is a book I am loving and hating. It is challenging to my life. I have to take breaks from it. But I have to read it because I beleive that what it is saying about BEING THE CHURCH is EXACTLY RIGHT ON. A point to consider from the book: when Jesus said the poor will always be with us maybe he wasn't saying that there will always be poor people, but that we(the church) would be among the poor always because the church cares for and is the poor. So much rumbling in my mind and heart..... just read the book people. I'm not sure what it's calling me to do specifically yet, but it is stirring something.
It snowed here over the weekend. Lots of snow-over a foot! It is beautiful. McKinney likes to help daddy and mommy shovel with a his very own dust pan. I will display pictures someday when we have a computer that can handle technology-we're still using the used one Jon had in college.
I am going to get a cake today. I love cake. I would eat cake every day if my mind would allow it. My mind won't allow me to eat a whole box of cookies either. I have an issue with indulging. I can't bring myself to indulge "too much". Maybe I'll ask the therapist about it. "Control issue" or the "need to be Responsible issue" or just a"healthy issue"? Anyway, I may go try to eat a third cookie in replace of lunch..... Have a Happy Renae's Birthday Day!
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Happy birthday, Renae! I hope you had a special day!! And feel blessed that you can'y "over-indulge"...I'd kill to have that type of restraint! If there's sugar in it, all form of self-control is completely LOST on my part! Anyway, hope that cake of yours was sweet in every way!
I hope you had a happy birthday! :)
Yes, I echo the happy commemoration of your genesis wishes. I especially liked how you explained that we never really lose our previous age when we gain another year. It was rather comforting. If I feel like I missed out on the good stuff during certain years of my life, I can definately use this as an excuse to behave childishly from time to time. :)
I forgot that we both have birthdays on the 27th of our perspective months. Just another thing...
Hey Renae! So happy to find myself reading your blog tonite! I hope you had a fantastic birthday.
I loved your part on Irresistible Revolution. I read that book myself in the summer/fall, and my thoughts were so similar to yours. The part about "the poor will always be among you" is still the first thing that comes to mind when I think about that book. I too have struggled with what to do...what exactly should my response be to this truth that has challenged me?
Anyways, wanted to say hi. I will be back! :)
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